life abundant.

“cause in the place where u are,
there’s a fountain a flowing,
stream of life
and a street of gold.
I want to be there,
till the end of time”

The words of this song one of my friends wrote last time still give me the chills everytime i sing those lines. It just makes me want to be in heaven so much. Sometimes i even think, what if it all aint enough? But, i know the good Lord will guide me and carry me thru amidst all my problems.
“there is no problem too big, God cannot solve it”

life abundant.
cliche?

well, sometimes in life, we tend to forego or forget those little bits of happiness. Everything seem to be clouded by work, stress, relationships, people etc. Have we ever stepped back, took a breath and say, “hey God, tell me why?”

i did that. in thailand.

Let me assure you. It works. Its as simple as when you step back, you are able to see and appreciate the BIGGER picture. God has His reasons for everything. believe me. everything. He lets everything happen for a reason. You have to let Himtake it all, take control, steer the wheel of your life. It is only then, you realize how inadequate you are. our greatest intelligence is like a dirt and cant be even compared to God’s foolishness.

SO, i let Him control my life since then, and yes, everything is back to where i want them to be (:

I just went out with bee on tues, eudora on wed and ca/pearle on thurs and everyday, i learn something new. people around me just add these little bits of knowledge and happiness into my life. Was talking to bee and eudora about worship and God’s purpose. Talking to ca/pearle about relationships etc. Sometimes unknowingly to us, we tend to just let these bits enter in one ear and evaporate from the other. Anyhow, I cant stop sharing about what is worship to me.

WORSHIP.

whenever i talk about that, the excitment just igniting within. I was happy to learn that bee saw worship/lyrics in a different light now and that if a picture paints a thousand words, worship paints a million pictures.worship to epitome of a love song. what do you associate love with? pleasing, sweet, aromatic, emotions, colours, smiles and many other nice sounding words.

Place them all together and you realize why worship=the pleasing aroma in God’s presence. Worship,more often than not is a declaration of our faith and a love song unto him. Lyrics play a major role in the song and very often we only care about the melody, how nice it sounds etc. We forget the confession we make when we declare the lyrics.

Like what i was sharing with bee and eudora. the song “from the inside out”. This song has a special place in my heart because of the words and how much power they have.

If you can recall the line “the art of losing myself -in bringing you praise”
WHAT is an art? something you appreciate, something that is beautiful, takes up precious time to learn and something that has to be mastered (i.e the art of kungfu etc). The fact that we have to keep dying to ourselves, mastering the way to lose ourselves, makes this line so much more meaningful and i love that it is an ART. we have to sacrifice our lives, losing ourself, stripped down to the bear minimum, just to bring Him praise. ultimate. inspiring (:

another line “Your will above ALL else, my purpose remains” and “A thousand times i fail, still Your mercy remains”
These two lines speak differently about our relationship with God, but both, equally important confessions.
the former emphasizes on us wanting nothing but His will in our lives to be done. It is a confession of our desire. while the latter is a confession of our faith.
faith and desire.
different but equally important.

Starting with the first line. It is a declaration of our believe and desire. it says, YOUR WILL ABOVE ALL ELSE, we often pray “may Your will be done..” what does that mean?
It means letting God take control of our situations, be it when we are happy or when we a down. “ABOVE ALL ELSE”, sometimes our lives gets clouded by so many problems that we forget Him. As much as we want what we want in our lives, we have to let Him steer us. What does purpose mean? PURPOSE defines to innert believe we hold dear to, in my opinion. people usually ask, “what is our sole purpose in life?” they are questioning our innert believes. so in that line alone, we learn so much, letting His perfect will be done in our lives and really giving all our worries to Him and practically smiling at the storm (something alot of us cannot do) becomes something we cling so dear to, a purpose. Its like this line from the show “FACING THE GIANTS”-if we win, we PRAISE Him – even if we lose, we PRAISE HiM Praise Him in all your situation, you will find that life is abundant.

The next line “a Thousand times i fail, still Your mercy remains”. Failure can sometimes tear a person down, or on the flip side of the coin, build a person up. This act of faith in the above line shows that, though i may fail and yes, it is sad. YOUR LOVE AND MERCY remains. Praising Him and thanking Him even in the storm. that is the beauty of that line and the beauty is that it is the first line of the song. From the vry beginning, it is humbling to just commit to God our inadequacies and having the faith to say ” Your mercy remains,no matter what”.
Instead of blaming Him, “God, why? Why?” we start the song, admitting how inadequate we are (: AWW its the beauty of the song! I can go on and on but i hope people get the point. Worship is so beautiful, though the melody is rather important, the words are the main stars (:

a life revolve around worship and His principles…
… ain’t it life abundance?

CHANGE the only CONSTANT

It is really a new season. Things change, people change, we all need a new direction. I have to agree with the fact that the only constant in life is yes, CHANGE. I have to agree, I change too. This is a trying and difficult time for me, as of lately. I feel so lost sometimes, but yes, God is my guide. (:

A new direction is needed in my whole life. Be it ministry, spiritual life and lastly in terms of friendship. What is a new direction? Is it us moving forward or us forced forward? First things first, I just wanna say that I kind of expect this sudden stepping down of directorship for a long time and I know God is in charge, He knows what He is doing. In times when we feel totally helpless, that is when He shows us His might. Our church is going through this “pruning” phase most of us call it. Its a phase that embodies the fact that people who ARE suppose to leave the church for any reason for that matter, WILL leave. For in the Bible it says that, there must not be any disputes or conflicts in the house of God. United we stand, divided, yes, we will fall. As for the youth ministry, I know a few people who are in the ministry and WANT to see progression in the ministry. What we need is not the numbers first, it is the vibrancy. People must see God, see fun, see laughter, see “togetherness” in us before they are inclined or attracted to come. When that happens, we can talk about growth. I am holding on so tightly to this, I know one day, God will show us, He is God and we are not (: I wanna see a breakthrough, not just SAYING that i wanna see, I want it to happen. God can do miracle and wonders, are we ready for it or should I ask, do we really want it or are we just contented with the current state of our church? We can be a generation that seeks or one that sleeps.

There can never be enough of God in our lives. Each day a new level is being reached. Falling back, back tracking are just some slippery stones in our lives. We fall, yes, we feel the pain, we get disappointed, but at the end of the day, its how we stand up and move on that matters. Lately, my spiritual life has just been OKAY. IT IS JUST OKAY and I am not happy with it. I wanna overflow, I wanna just indulge if you can say it that way.

As for you. I know I haven’t been the best. I have made you tired over and over again. I am sorry. Like whatv I said in my morning message to you, I treasure you alot and yes, I have thought it through. Maybe more break time is needed but yeah, I know how to handle us. Thanks for always caring for me and all, I really thank God for you. And after all these years of friendship, I have grown so much, been through so much and just the fact that we understand each other so much just makes me wanna treasure us more. Though like what ca said, you may be my number 1 but I am not yours, I truly and clearly understand and am not unhappy or disappointed It is quite obvious HAHA. I must jump at the background to get your attention (your analogy HAHA) I know we each have to have our own space, that is very important. So any time when you are ready. I will be too-
`being there for you when you need me like always
`lending you my shoulders when you are disappointed
`spending sun afternoons with you when you are free
`having friday dinners with you, like those time at SAKURA
`just enjoying good food with you
`chilling at your house
`watch late night movies with you
`disturbing you when Liverpool loses
`meet you at your school though it is at dover
`run with you
`go church late in a taxi together

.. and there is so much more. SO yeah, anything sis (:

So yeah, need we disagree? CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT

its a new season (:

My spiritual life has been improving slowly as compared to the past few months. This to me is rather important as i know, finally I am heading in the right directions. This few weeks have kept me wanting for more, so much so that I just can’t seem to be satisfied with my spiritual life.

There is this song by Matt Redman: HEART OF WORSHIP. This speaks of us prople, turning our eyes upon Jesus and the coming back to one of our main purposes in life – to worship Him, not with our words, nice songs, good band, BUT a HEART of worship. Strangely though, I feel as if God wants me to bring this message across to many people, to this generation of believers that – no matter how good a song is, what’s gonna be sweet and aromatic to Him will be what comes out of the heart.

I am looking forward to leading worship in the main service. It is going to be a step forward for me and I pray whoever is reading this, please pray for me. Song selection is an essential part of the worship one or two people tend to forgo and just choose freely, which can be dangerous as we tend to choose songs we like. Honestly speaking, my song list for this was generated in a span of 5 months. I have the tendency, even when leading the youth worship, to not sit down for an hour and say.”LORD GIVE ME 4 songs”. Instead, I will pray through the week, if the song comes, it comes. I will have this heavy prompt to sing a particular song or theme, well, this method can be quite tiring though as I am in camp for the whole week. Though its tiring and all, I don’t feel strained at all to lead week in and week out. This puzzles me. I should be giving up, why am i not? Then i realize that ITS MY CALLING, when someone gets tired of doing what someone is called to do, something is wrong.

However, I do not want to be just there, I want to have MORE! There is a verse that goes,”MANY ARE CALLED, but only a few are chosen”. I don’t want to lose that calling, because if one fails, God raises 11 more to take his place, and i dont want that to happen BECAUSE IT IS A PRIVILEDGE TO SERVE HIM.

So people out there, keep seeking more of Himand asking Him back into your life. He is MORE then willing to return to your lives and TRUST ME, your life will never be the same AGAIN! ITS A NEW SEASON! start afresh with JESUS! ((:

Please pray for my driving test on 3 Aug, because I feel so inadequate and my instructor ain’t the best teacher, but pray that God will show me mercy (:

GOD BLESS!

REVIVAL GEN

Its time i blogged (: well my life hasn’t been at all great sometimes.. well as of lately, it has been improving. however, i am still not satisfied, still not contented with my life. Have i done enough? What next? I want my life to be so abundant in Jesus so much so that my cup overflows. I want more, I want His calling to be fulfilled in my life. IT IS TIME. We need a breakthru! DLCC needs a breakthru, CharisMA needs a breakthru, I need a breakthru, my family needs a breakthru, Li Chu needs a breakthru, Pearle needs a breakthru, Abby needs a breakthru, Ca needs a breakthru, Ezra needs a breakthru, Eunice needs a breakthru, Esther needs a breakthru, Ruth needs a breakthru, Victor needs a breakthru, Joels need a breakthru. EVERYONE NEEDS A BREAKTHRU. If not now, when? We need to be yearning for more, desperate for Him. We mustn’t be contented with the given, with now. We need more.

My spiritual has been improving slowly and i am happy i can feel the passion and the fire within me grow again. Everyday is like mundane in the past, just following through. At least it is different now. Thank you Jesus for showing me and letting me know I am precious still in Your eyes no matter what i did or have done in the past.

Let us be the generation, be THAT GENERATION to usher God’s presence to DLCC and SINGAPORE. He has so much installed for us. We need a great awakening. We want people within the radius of the church falling in awe when we worship. We need to be the stepping stone. CharisMA needs a revival. I imagine we will be jumping and singing prases in a 1000 packed YOUTH audience in our new church building on saturdays and 5000 packed ADULTS on sundays. Just purely indulging in Jesus and singing His praise.

It is now.

Thank you Lord (:

When Lord, when?

Is it time?

treasure them (:

I hate this. I hate saying goodbye. Goodbye to anything for that matter. Well yeah it is for God’s glory and nothing ain’t gg to screw it up right! (: sometimes i have to agree that my spiritual life ain’t the best or ain’t wat it used to be. all i want now is a new refreshing outpour of the holy spirit upon my life. Sometimes bad habits just bite into you and saying goodbye to it too, isn’t at all easy. All i wanna do now is to run back to Him and cast ALL my cares upon Him.

In times like this, we know that our Daddy is always there with His outstretched arms waiting to receive us back if only we are willing to confess. Thats the beauty of it all. Many a time we often know that we’re wrong and take for granted that God will forgive. YES HE WILL but we shouldn’t take that for granted. I’ve learn that and i hope tis 28days when i’m away, there would be this new outpour. The fire to start, the hunger for more and more of You.

The past 7-8months have been a nice, topsy turvy one. but every minute is cherished (: every minute of my life is. I’ve learn to cherish experience and even the very fact that i’m till walking and running on the face of the earth. If i one day when you lose it all, like become bedridden etc you find that you could do so much more, the times you had could be cherished more. But won’t it be too late? So I’m going to do ALL i can now, while i can (: i miss everything that has happened. everything (: including those childhood days i’d be running around and playing PS with ezra and eunice, the Centre of Light children camp when Joy, Grace, Michelle and her See family gang, Amelia, Kevin, Joel, Othniel.. everyone was just doing nothing but playing and running around not caring about work, friends cuz everyone is your friend, jobs, future. Now, everyone is goal focused, not that its bad, be weve become too focused on the practical we forgot about the pure happiness in life. i remember Haddessah and Faith when they were just born. Now one is in JC while the other Sec 1. time flies. I’m 20 this year, like what Pearle said, we MUST treaure this time when we still can sit on the MRT floor at one corner and no one on the train will think its weird. Imagine if we’re 40 and still doing that, how weird HAHA.

I miss the times when i was in Primary School, I really had nothing to worry about. I dont have to care about my future or what am i going to do when i grow up. Then, it was just what i dream to be, not what i am going to be. I just wanna stay 20 all my life.

I remember those times in the past when i was sad, i’d just go to my mum’s bed and cry to her, and now i won’t. Even up till now, when i can see my parents, talk my heart to them, listen to them, know tat they’re always there. I AM GOING TO TREASURE IT. treasure what i can cause in the next 40 years or so, they may not be here for me already, i won’t be able to feel my mum ruffling my hair and praying for me while i’m fast asleep, won’t be able to hear her scream. I know she is always crying to God for me and that i’m precious to her, to them. i will cherish them always. i hope its the same for you all reading this. cherish them. Cherish whatever experience you have now. Don’t regret later.

On a random note, i just wanna say, i love you chu dear. alot. YOU MEAN SO MUCH to me! and PEARLE, there can never be a bestfr like you always there for me. ca for always listening to me. THANK YOU ALL. i treasure you all(:

time

it has bben really ages since i blogged. oh well.my life is slowly growing stronger in the Lord again. i feel as if, i have so many unaccomplished things to do. i am so growing old. 20 already this year. nd there are so many friendships i treasure so much! i miss hanging out with the people i grew up with or just catching up with them. i hate growing up, thinking bout my future, how to earn money etc, i just wanna live my life like now. more than ever.

time really flies.. as of 23 FEB 2009,
i…
-am left with 9months in the army ( i remember the day i enlisted and a group of my closest friends came to send me off)
-have 18 months till my uni term starts
-am this close to chu for 5 years (since 2005) ahh she is so dear to me
-first met pearle and had lunch with her at toa payoh in 2005
-am 3 months from hitting 20yrs old
-ahhh i just hate time to fly like that
-first saw ca in 1997 at a church camp-look like toot then
even as i type this. time is speeding past. oh well

how i wish time would just stand still (:
-i need more than 24 hours a day
-is there the 61st min in an hour?

ok pearle is starting her internship tday. jiayou girl (:
i miss u ((:

well, just thinking…

certain thoughts…
-what do we live for?
-are His will for us accomplished or in the process?
-what is our calling?
-we experience trials, sorrows but do we come out stronger?
-what does it mean to be a victor in Christ?
-if Christ comes today, where would we be?

on other random thoughts…
-who really are our friends?
-i really miss chu dear
-i miss pearle girl so much
-why does man u keep making me excited?

ah well, letting the cyber world people view whats in my mind.

on another note, youth leading worship tday in church was good(: thank God! PRAISE HIM

i wanna spend time with PEARLE GOHHHHH.

how best is best?

recently i’ve been talking to my dear chu bout alot of things. well one of those that suffice is the existance of a “best friend”. well, my questions do pop up in my mind.. like
-what really is a best friend?
-must it be mutual for both sides?
-why the need?
well, i use to think that its just a corny issue and a thing i will forever avoid, but well, i guess not now.

a best friend is-
someone who will be there for you no matter what. someone who sticks with you thru thick and thin. someone who navigates the route of life with you. someone who accepts you for who you are. someone who hates seeing a frown form on your face. someone who prays constantly for you. someone who tells you its wrong IN THE FACE and not try to mask it up with a facade. someone whom one can rely on, in any situation. someone whom you just like to be with.

for me its you pearle goh. (:

what does it mean by the best days of your life? just had a little catch up session with florence, wan hsin and christianne. its really nice just chatting with them, laughing at lame jokes and comments and most importantly just catching up on the good old days (:
-tjc
-32/06
-care and share
-mugging
-marquee
-chalet
-pastamania
-parkway
-korea
-xbox
-basket ball

i miss those days i’d rush to school and meet up with those friendly faces, those lovely company. i miss my jc days, my classmates. and even the mugging!

yupp the best days of my life aye?

best team in the whole world?
*need i say more?
MANCHESTER UNITED FC
OLD TRAFFORD
-10 times EPL winners
-1999, 2008 CHAMPIONS LEAGUE WINNERS

hmm yeah
best is so subjective.
but for me, its clearly defined

i loveu chu, you’re my best (:

the weekends ((:

dear Lord, i wanna be back in Your embrace, back in Your arms, back to where i belong. sometimes i do fall away, please forgive me Lord. cleanse my heart and may it be pleasing unto You. forgive me of all my sins and use the blood of Jesus to wash me clean, white as snow again. Lord, You know mt heart’s cry, me heart’s desire. is to Lord, see the nations worship, every tribe and tongue rejoicing. send Your gospel preached to the ends of the earth. Lord give me this priviledge to be used in this mission. i wanna be used by You.

AND WITH ONE MIGHTY VOICE
EVERY TRIBE, EVERY TONGUE REJOICES
OUR HEARTS
OUR DESIRE
IS TO SEE THE NATIONS WORSHIP YOU ((:

ignite and revive this passion within me LORD!

ah, its finally the weekends!
i cant wait for practice tommorow and i cant wait to hang out with, chu dearr and pearle girl. i miss them so so much.

i just would like to thank you pearle for loving me and caring for me in ur own special way. i know you care for me alot and i know i’m like the most impt guy in your life, now at least. i’m honoured. i just want u to know that i really do miss you and i miss chatting with u, hanging out with you, playing bbball with you and like my leave in may, you spent EVERY DAY with me. i miss youu so much girl. even as u are busy with your work, please remember to take good care of your health ok (: remember, like always, i will be behind you supporting you all the way.

chu dear, no one has impacted my life like you do since we got close in 2005. wow, time really flies and its an honour to be this close to you. and as we embark on our next journey tgt, i pray God will honour us, and i pray that He will use us mightily and for His name sake. thank you for all the love you’ve showered me with. thank you for loving me for who i am. i TGFY. (guess it) hahah. i love you dearr (:

oh and lastly, i wanna make special mention bout my dear da jie, esther, ca.. i really miss you all alot. i wanna catch up sooooooon! (: love you guyss

thanks vic for your whole choir coordination thing, though its scary that you’re this enthu, i really wanna thank God for it. (:

this also meansssss its gna be MAN UTD match again! ((: against stoke city tmr. pls thrash them ok? ok as for the cyber world who is totally ignorant of my love for man utd, ya, i love them supporting them since 1996. even before some of you little kids playing maple story out there were born HAHAHA. i know pearle loves liverpoool, but i still love her. HAHA thats just an exception for her. as for the rest you better love MAN U or else….

love you more than liverpool.

it seems as if we’re drifting, i dont want that to happen ok.
you mean too much to me
seriously
i dont know if i mean just as much to you
i hope i am
i dont only wanna be your sat/sun friend you know what i mean
it just feels different
i know you’re busy
just know that i’ll always be there for u no matter what
i still love you the same
as much
even if we support different clubs in the EPL
maybe i am just thinking too much
yeah

yeah
i just felt i have to write this
no need to take it to heart
yeah

on a happy note!! prac today with the vocalists, sam, ana and vic was good. i am totally looking fwd to next sat “combine” its gg be fun! went out to far east with chu tday. it was nice, bought a nice shirt and yeahh we’re both tired and my legs were beyond walking hahah. talking bout my legssss. i have officially completed my 72km route march -bet you didnt know that huh- ytd and finally got the beret abeit my poor dying legs. hahahha thanks chu for always praying for me. ok (: love u

oh well man utd lost to arsenal
but who cares
they’re gg win the epl still

for me

<3

this number is freaking cool (:

THIS SUPER ROMANTIC CAN (: i love HSM 3 MAN!

watched it with ca and pearle AGAIN (: we liked it, especially me and girl (:
really enjoyed myself with them tday we ate kushingbowl ((:
i love spending time with them. just makes me happy ((:

High School Musical 3:Senior Year is <3

i want this fire to continue to burn. i wanna see the lost save. since sept i’ve been really really dry but it has been picking up lately. i need You Lord. was just thinking to myself, what an uncertain world this is, what an uncertain world we’re living in.

look at the financial crisis, look how the lehman brothers’ tumble and bringing the world’s economy with it. look at the poverty rate in the world.

was just watched THE I HEART REVOLUTION:WITH HEARTS AS ONE dvd, and i teared at some parts. it did ignite the fire within. there are 2.1billion children in this world and 1 billion are living in poverty and are in need of our GOD :’( what are we doing? or better.. what can we do?

was preparing worship songs for 14 dec, its tough i tell u. really. it maybe boring and stuff but i feel it apt for our church congregation. one step at a time. ALL THE WAY MY SAVIOUR LEADS ME (:

went out with pearle girl today, had dinner at swensons, spent some time catching up, talking. then we went to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3. the show was awesome really, some parts quite sad, emo but the ending like all disney movies is a happy one. i am still thinking bout the show even as i type this HAHA. girl so happy HAHAH so cute la! i love u pearle, u mean so much to me ((:

hey (: i just wanna say that i love you very much. i want it all to turn out the way we planned it to. lets just cling onto JESUS now first alright? (:

on a random note

i’m still feeling the same way for you, just that hey.. its all under control and in God’s hands now (:

brunei darussalam (:

i don’t know if my smiley is right, but somehow i have like mixed feelings about leaving brunei. this 21 days have been painful YET enjoyable. sadistic? i think SAF has taught me that “pain is good, more pain, more good” i am immuned to the terrible and harsh conditions of the jungle, loved my combat ration, drink and bathe in spings and streams, slept in a hammock. what more can i ask for? i have been thru so much there for the past 3 weeks (sorry hor.. i cant elaborate, its a chargable offence )

yesterday was the educational tour. i am in awe of that country. do u know that the sultan has a palace, his palace with 1788 rooms? it is so big, grand hyatt runs it. he too has a museum about himself and a personal mosque. WOW. the 29 domes of his mosque is plated with 24k GOLD can. as i ate and busked in the glory of the mornarchy state, i kept thinking back of all the hard trainings, great food, the company of my army friends.. brunei ain’t that bad after all though yeah true,nothing beats touching down at singapore’s changi airport

so yeahhh ((:

oh man, returning back here makes me wonder how has everyone been. i miss everyone here so much i miss u chu dear. i miss u pearle girl. i miss the whole cell. EVERYONE! wonder how is charisma.. i wanna see it impact and grow so much.. why am i shooting random thoughts? FATIGUE.

i’m gg start a band. charisma youths of past and present pls give me ur names. AND! i need ur wholehearted commitment. we must keep improving ourself in terms of skills and in spiritual state! (:

LORD LIGHT THE FIRE AGAIN, I FEEL NEW LIFE BEGIN (:

to be like Him

things has really took an interesting turn this days. i am really happy with my current situation. having the weekdays cooped up in camp has really make me see God’s glory, in small little circumstances and situations. i am not happy just being delighted with where i am, what i am now. the question remains: ARE WE GRABBING AND HOLDING ON TIGHTLY TO GOD’S CALLING IN YOUR LIFE? ARE WE IN HIS WILL?

in camp i hardly get free time to do a proper QT and if i do get free time, i’d be catching up on my sleep-deprived life.and it is bugging me. i wanna live my life a pleasing aroma to God, no facade just keeping it real.

what is worship? its not just singing and praising Him on sats and suns, it really is a life of sacrifice unto Him,  a life of worship and having the heart of worship. worship is sacrifice. i know this is my calling. i know too, what can be the potential barrier that stands in the way of my calling. so AVOID/GET AROUND/OVERCOME IT. yeah, easier said than done right? its just like entering the gates of heaven. its hard, its narrow. my life must be a reflector of Christ, people must see Him in me.

the mike guglielmucci issue sure did bother me, i was so inspired by the song, by him for that matter. but look at it. he had the guts to admit it and for that, i know, he has been convicted! isnt our God good? let me just say, all the critics online- if YOUR life is clean and blameless, please take the first stone and throw at him. seriously. human is a fallible being. human nature. mike’s song is a gift from God thru him to us, and let me just say, the songs he writes still impacts me.

on another note, i really wanna fulfill my calling, i wanna see worship and evangelism merged as one in my ministry. i wanna see people dancing, praising Him with arms high and hearts abandoned. i wanna see people running to the front the receive Jesus into their lives. i wanna see the lost save. i wanna see the power of music manifest. i wanna see God work in my life.

a life pleasing to You. to be like Him

( anyway, i am leaving for brunei really soon on the 8th of sept to the 28th. please pray for me. )

<3

wow. looking at the current position we’re in. one can never believe that we had issues a month ago eh?

i mean, who else but God can do this? and your blog!!! though its only 2 lines. those two lines touched my heart alot. yeah.. all along, all this 4 years, u were that special to me. pain at times, but i loved u the same. more now though. i thank God for placing u in my life and blessing me.

it doesnt have to be alot. just those simple stuff u do for me. simple prayers u made for me. simple hours u sacrifice for me. simple little surprises u made for me.

it doesnt have to be big.

i know what’s in your heart. i know u care. i know u love me. that’s all that matters. (:

and rest assure, i wont ever leave u. even if u do, one day.

thank you for everything

thank you chu <3

don’t worry (:

girl.. things have really been nice recently, and its really Christ maintaining our friendship eh? HAPPY (: i really thank God for it! i just want u to know that..

u rmb the msg u sent me when i was watching a movie with pearle? i meant it. u really DO NOT have to worry ok. i really treasure u. do not doubt that.. i know u do too (:

it was nice today(: just lovely! HAHA

 

insecurity from clovis’ and lichu’s life in JESUS NAME ((: AMEN!

 

(: don’t worry. <3 u can’t be replaced.

” i got a cute photo of myself in my phone….” :P

someone said that to me. dont guess, that person will hantam me. i scared HAHA. it was something like this,”eh clo, i got a cute photo of myself in my phone, but aiya, my phone died, cannot see. hahaha”

anyway, this week has been relatively tiring, since in entered into 1st commando battalion. i am so tired out and quite piss off with the fact that my instructors, csm, oc are army crazy personals. i only can book out on sat afternoons and i dont like it. i wanna serve God and this is my hearts cry and desire. but it seems like i cant oh well. i will just have the FAITH, like wat was taught in cell yesterday. i sure hope i can apply it!

anyway, girl (: i’m drowning already.. in all the sweetness u shower me with. i so do not wanna delete ur messages man! but yeah.. cannot give each other too much sweetness, if not dry up. yeah like what u said, for me receiving your messages makes my day in army SO MUCH more easier to past (: i dont think we;d ever get sick of each other. impossible la. and we have a nice chatting session with u and it ended on a sweet note (with #03) (: i sure do love 1 on 1 time with u. THAT WOODEN BENCH!

dear Lord, thank you for all you’ve done. i remember i prayed bout the whole “closest friend” thing and i even placed it as what i have to achieve in my 3rd or 4th post. i siad i wnt it back. i struck it off in faith and now, Jesus, u gave it back to me and even made us more closer. how Lord, can i ever thank You i’m glad i siad the prayer pearle taught me to (: keep chu and myself in ur tender loving hands. steer our friendship in your direction. we’re going YOUR WAY! (:      -amen-

 

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never been more happier (:

well well. tday was a rather relaxing day. it was fun. was slacking at home until bout 3plus before i went and find chu. haha. ooh and a nice morning msg made my day TOTALLY! ((:

we were talking and yeah i have to agree with u, we can never be more elated bout everything now (: SMILING. the feeling is weirdly nice really.

met pearle for a movie “get smart” it was really funny HAHA. she so pretty today, so girly top agn! HAHA.

I AM THANKFUL DEAR LORD FOR ALL THAT IS HAPPENING NOW. JESUS, NOTHING LIKE THIS CAN HAPPEN WITHOUT YOU, TAKE CONTROL LORD (: